I can't seem to stop myself

I feel like I've been whining a lot about being too busy lately. And now I just got myself scheduled to give a talk during my visit with my folks over spring break.

Though really, I'd jump at any excuse to get out of my parents' house. This one is both self-serving and stress-inducing at the same time.

You know, it used to be that when I got really busy like this, my brain would short circuit and I'd lose sleep because I'd lie awake worrying at night. But at some point, I think some time after becoming a mom, I developed this defense mechanism where I'd shove all those worries into a far corner of my brain so I'd be able to get some sleep. I've also developed this attitude of, "So what about next week? Today I'm working on this other thing, and I'll get to next week when I get there." On the one hand, I think this is a good thing because I get more sleep and I feel more relaxed. On the other hand, I worry that I've become even more of a procrastinator.

Hmm, maybe I'll tackle the procrastination issue next week.